The Change

I decided to join Weight Watchers on August 20, 2006. I had been checking out all the options that I had around me since I needed to do something about not being able to fit. To fit into my jeans, to fit into my subaru, to fit into my chef coats, to fit into airplane, to fit into society.

This was not going to be my 1st battle of my journey. I had been successful in shedding pounds before but it is when there is a life hiccup where I run a ground. This can not be healthy for me to be a yo-yoer and I really want the chunky kid off my back.

I have always been the chunky kid. I clearly remember my brother getting into fights at school to stop the kids picking on me. I just don't want to pass that on to my kids. I can only imagine how cruel kids are today if they were that way in the 70's and 80's.

When I was 15, my family joined Weight Watchers. We had great success and I lost over 100 pounds. Then I had jaw surgery and was wired shut for 3 months and stopped going to Weight Watchers. So, the chunky kid was back. I was having being a kid and then off to college I went and lots of fun there.

In 2002, the chunky kid was feeling alone in Michigan and started asking the why's of life. Why did I chose my career as numero uno? Why did that breakup lead to a new relationship with Ben & Jerry? Why did my feet hurt so much that I couldn't walk after a long day at work? Why did my work clothes cost so much? And then one day as I was bonding with Judge Judy, bam a LA Weight Loss commercial came on and before you knew it I was walking in to the store and signing my tax return over to them. One year later, I was lighter!! In the pockets and in my waist. I had lost 134 pounds!! I was feeling great about myself and want to change more of the whys?? So I started dating again looking for the guy for me. The market in Michigan was not the greatest so I opened up my search up to the worldwide web. Lo and behold, a guy from Canada was my soulmate and lifelong best friend. After talking to Bernie, I decided to fly out to Vancouver and meet him for my 30th birthday. Let's not talk about the 30 issue. Okay lets!! I was having a hard time with turning 30. I was working 80 hour week sometimes, alone, not having enough time in life to do the lil things like pay your bills, not having relations with Ben & Jerry, and I totally hot after a guy 3000 miles away. As I was flying out to meet Bernie, I knew I was about to meet someone that I wanted in my corner of the ring. After a couple of trips out to be with him, I knew that was my place to be. So I moved!! Had a couple of job interviews via the phone but Bellingham, Washington was a tough job market. It took me over a year to get a job. So guess what, Judge Judy & I become buddies again. Diet Coke and Chips were invited to the pity party and the couch too. You know what happened next. All that money and hard work went down in flames!! Once the smoke cleared, 340 pound Beth reappeared.

What's different this time you ask?? I was thinking about and trying to decide which route to go since I was ready of the lifestyle change. The real kick in the pants was the conversion that my father in law had with my husband about my health and weight. I guess wasn't hiding it from anyone that I was obese!! This time is different because it is just not me anymore. I have Bernie to think about and any kids that we may be blessed with. Why would I want to have anything that I can have a hand in controlling put me in harms way if we were to have kids? Why would I want to put Bernie in a position of being a single father at the age of 50? Why would I want my legacy be to the chunky kid card?

So on August 20, 2006, I walk through the door a the local Weight Watcher Center and started the journey of my life.

It will be a journey for life since I seem not to be able to be accountable to myself like I am to others.

I love food, it is a passion of mine, but like any other drug. I'm addicted to it!! Hello, My Name is Beth, and I'm a food addict!!